I bore

As I sit barefoot (indian style)*  at my desk

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*racist description and I totally Know better

AHh the olde blogs

I love blogs, like when I tell you I think the best thing the internet ever encouraged was blogs im so serious.  Never mind mapquest, or any other feature not even the access to the how to type of info cuz blogs are wayyyyy more interesting.  A few years back when I first started blogging I was soooooooooooooooooooo into reading blogs.  I was an addict.  I would on a beautiful summer day, willingly and very happily stay home peruse mad blogs comment and just hangout in cyber space and i thought it was soooooo much fun.  Looking back its unbelievable lol, every now and then I go to peek at one of my old time faves and usually the blog will be stagnant. 

Like everybody either deserted their blog all together and possibly started a new one or several others or just plain grew out of the whole blogging thing.  I think I'm like an old g now as far as frequency with my updates and everything.  Most other bloggers even if they do still sort of have an active blog they r updating like three or four times a year now as opposed to like twice or more a week.  Sheesh I hate when habits just like old friendships do this.  It sucks, v_v I wish humans in general could be better individuals and stick to things they start like all those vacant blogs out there in cyber space its like floating dead bodies its weird.  I cant help but wonder what happened to these people.  Its a particularly hurtful kind of wonder, like a blog especially a personal one is somebody's life somebody's story, somebody's legacy, when it just stops being updated its erie, like why not leaving a forwarding link, or say in your last post that u hate blogging and wont do it anymore its bizarre, I dont think I could do that.  In my blog I have a twitter connected so even if I did stop blogging my twitter would let u know what I was up to and even even neither of those let you know you could always send a message to which I would respond pretty quickly.  Its like weird to me to just abandon a blog its like a piece of you. hmmm 8runs away never comes back*

lmfaoo don't you love when people do that!?!  Bash something to hell and then do exactly that lmfaoaoaoaoaoaoaoaoaoaoaoaoao

btw I finally finished Valley of the Dolls I loved it!!!!!  It was soo good and soo real and sooooooo down to earth and it taught lessons.  Its like you cannot control what others do and u cannot let what they do control you oh well *life in a nutshell* I tried watching the movie on netflix as soon as I got home yesterday but i lost interest i didnt understand teh casting,  Anne was brunette = HOW THE HELL R U GUNNA EXPLAIN THE WHOLE BOOK SHE IS CONSTANTLY DESCRIBED AS BEING BLONDE -__- bewwwwwww

so i lost patience and passed out swimming had knocked me on my donkay hours earlier its a wonder I had even tried to do that. lmao  welpszas toodles.

Beach Day

This weekend at the Beach was awesome I don't think I will ever stay away from the beach this long again. LOL will be there this weekend most def! and the week after and the week after that and eventually it will be rele cold v_V so I will have to wait lmao  but in the meantime im tryna chilll lol.  This summer ended up being spectacular I thought cuz Im vacationing in the fall it was gunna be one of those summers ya know like bleh its hot but not rele much going on.  it actually turned out to be pretty nice.      Summer is now my fav season.  It makes a huge diff how you spend your time, if your attitude is bleh then your life will be bleh if your attitude is YAYYYYYY then your life will be YAYYYY lmfaoooo and yes that the best way I could describe it.  But this may not even be true just my little belief. im still reading Valley of the Dolls bwah haha the book is getting a little depressing at first it was adorable how everyone was in the big city they were young and everything worked out for them now they are all getting up in years and all of them seem unsatisfied and still searching for happiness and they all have money now like lots of it.. None of the main characters ever have to work again ever but they still don't have the happy sweet home life they always wanted with some kids and decent husband.          Damn that's a depressing story for an aspiring XYZ to read cuz coming up all you think is missing is wealth and fame (if your into that sort of thing) but to hear about ppl who have all the clothes they could ever imagine, more money than they could ever spend and still aint happy and no kids dayummmmmmmm oh hell,  I wonder how women received this book when it first first came.  like were the poorer women glad and thankful about their own life and like u seee look at them?  or were they even more doomed to find out that money, beauty, and fame really dont solve your problems. 

You know who I don't like though..Neely her ego is unreasonable for someone coming from her background.  Like why and how could you show your ass that bad and ruin your own career/life?  Its bizarre to me, and I identify with and understand Anne the most well her and Jennifer  I understand where jennifer is coming from too but I dont get her frigidness and lack of love, Anne's either. And Kevin just done pissed me off, all this time Anne wants to be married and he's playing her out, now he has a heart attack and his impotent ass wants her marry just so he can be sure she wont leave, I rele rele hope she doesnt marry him, cuz he was triflin and played hee life and wants to keep her without having any kids cuz he dont feel like it and his kids wont like it= HOT MESS but now he's a useless no good impotent old good for nothing man and now he wants to marry,  shocking!  Anne should roll out str8 up lmfaoaoaoaoaoaoaoa

Discoveries this Week

I wandered down by China town and Little Italy and spied out like five awesome looking spots to eat xD then yesterday I discovered down by Bowery an awesome hotel and chill spot that I'm sure will come in handy this amazing summer.

I alsoooo discovered the McChickn at McDonalds,  its sooo delicious HOW COME NOBODY TOLD ME!?!  I have never in all my years on this planet gotten a chicken sandwich from a fast food restaurant and I had a taste for chicken, nasty fried greasy chicken preferably nuggets from Wendys but Wendys was not in sight and I was hungry, and McDonalds was right there and there nuggets are whack so I was like ...wellll the McChicken looks aiiight ima try that... and pow! match made in heaven this is like my fav junk food now. :D Whuudah thunk it!

Valley of the Dolls

So I'm reading this book,  DONTCHU JUDGE ME! and I don't really know how to feel about it.  its a great book its good its really really unique and interesting in the way that it speaks the fears and troubles specific to women of a certain time and real talk even today.  its deep my only issue is I can't tell the authors perspective...like while reading it i can't tell whether the author agrees that a woman should use her body and looks to marry up and benefit her financially over choosing a marriage based on love, or if the author is showing the reader that this is what this girl did and look how she turned out.  we see that the girls make mistake and I make it a point to learn from their error even though they are just fictional characters.  

I don't get whether the point is don't look for love search for advancement and resources for your children or if the message is don't be the property of a man live your own life.  :/ I'm also not clear on the whole attitude towards sexuality in this book,  should women own it and use it to their advantage or to their whim or be traditional like Anne...and in Jennifer's situation is her mother right for what she is doing?  Like is she correct for breaking her up with her boyfriend and sending her on a mission to marry a rich person and lying about her age and all that? its just bizarre.  All of the unions in this book are totally superficial I don't see any genuine heartfelt attachment in any of the couples except for mayyybe Anne and Lyon but even there its not a deep relationship and everything is rooted in initial attraction and their beauty is mentioned a lot.  I wonder what message the author is trying to bring across by presenting so many couples that aren't really great companions for one another but with the women thirsty for marriage before they get too old and men eager to settle before no one wants them or before their barganing chip is used and no pretty younger stupid girl is willing to marry them or just willing to settle when they believe they have come across the absolute best female specimen they believe they can get.

So does the author believe that male female relationships are inevitably this shallow and there's no point in trying? or is the author being flipit and portraying the irony of how shallow and ridiculous the characters limited beliefs are??

w.e will update my opinions when i finish